Aikido Essay
What is Aikido?
Persönliches Essay von Julia Geissberger in Englisch.
Listening in presence. Moving and responding from stillness. Healing of conflict.
Listening from stillness. Moving and responding in presence. Healing of conflict.
Aikido is relationship, with my Self, with a partner, with life, with energies, with emotions. A dance into no resistance. When there is no resistance, there is no conflict, whether it is inner or outer confllict. Conflict gets transformed. How can this happen? It is a mistery! It flows together......Relationship is that which is in between the two, that which contents, holds, includes the two. A movement of the Two towards One, into One. Relationship as the movement into Oneness. Then the relationship disappears. There is no relationship, there is only One.
Aikido is moving spontaneous and naturaly. What is natural, how do I know what is natural? Is there anything not natural? How do I know? By listening - to what? To my body, to the moment, to stillness, to my partner. You are the world I am facing.
Who is moving, what is moving? Am I moving? Who is I? Who am I? Space. Not doing. I love, I am fully awake, my mind is empty, projections fall apart. I feel and let go – deeply touching Life, merging with Life.
Waking up my Self and waking up my partner.
As I let go of tension and resistance, as I relax I become natural. I become who I am. Natural presence. Relaxing the mind and the concepts about „what is martial“. By relaxing the mind and emotions, my body relaxes. Love arises, Compassion and Joy. Consciousness of the whole. I feel empty in the sense of „I dont control, I dont know, I dont do“. Not to know is emptyness. It is joyfull not to know and very energetic. In the same time I am actively involved in what is happening. Cocreating. Limitless!
This is real! This is truely happening, this is true!
A new, fresh energy rises and flows trough my body. I can feel and respond to the world. Change can happen - according to the situation and challenge. The body, the whole system alignes with earth, space and a partner. Aligned with the world, with my Self, my body. Yes, we are together, connected. Forgiving! I can feel you, I forgive – you, life, the story that was me. Aikido is very physical, there is touch, I touch you and in the same moment I am touched. I can feel your tension and your softness, your fear and your desire for life, I can feel your love and the child in you, the wild animal in you.
What is feeling? By feeling you do I feel you or myself? When I touch your hand, I also touch my hand. Is feeling you, reminding myself who I am? How much does feeling weigh?
Aikido is being in love with the moment, letting go deeply, responding life in a way that allows the whole system to change and to come to a place of harmony. Harmony, the willingness to recognise that in the end we all want the same thing, to love and be loved, to feel at home in this existance, to live in peace and freedom, without fear and without war.
Julia, September 08
